tears

i miss you so effing much bby T.T i wannna meet u soon , i wish u're next to me right now . i will be soooooooo happy to meet you , i really miss you sososososososososo much , i can't even explain to u the pain . i wish u love me as much as i love you but perhaps i'm not as pretty or skinny or perfect as desiree , i wish i was but i guess i can't do anything about it. i watch couple vids and i wish u were with me to cuddle and love me. don't leave me , please don't leave me T.T ily imy so much

pain

i miss you so fucking much bby . T.T i can sleep in tears , flowing down my cheeks . why won't u ask me to meet u alr . imy imy imy imy imy imy imy imy imy so much . i really do . i love u , u won't call me urs becos u dont even love me for me . u like me for my body , why ! it hurts me so much to see u flirt with others . i wanna hug u and cuddle with u at night , rainy weather , ur warm body against my cold skin . i love u bby , come back to me please . love me as much as i love u please . TTTTT>TTTTTTTTTT ouch!

hatred

everything is just slowly fading away . the words u used to say has vanished , the meaning to it vanished as well. i became a totally different person , a person i no longer know , a person that the previous me hates. over-protective when u aren't even my boyfriend . possesive , causing u to hate me , i am an over sensitive person (trying to change). i miss u , but i can feel the love fading away . u and ur desiree , it hurts me a lot . do u really have to tell me all those crap shit that caused me to imagine stuff? if u're playing with me ,play and never stop .just like how much effort u put in to play GTA V. i miss talking to u and being lovey dovey with u . can't wait for the exams to end ... like i want it to end.NOW idk shld i invite u for my sister's 18th birthday ? or shld i not... idk i want u to come but what if u get bored...

idk

idk . idk what to think anymore , u know what it hurts more than a knife poking through my chest . or idk wat but ouch ? they all still talk to u , ok can maybe u treat me like all the other girls . she still texts u and u tell me that for what ?