10 months

It all started out with hatred . "Can the both captains from both teams shake hands please!" ,  "oh , what a bother" i thought . Taking forever to just exchange a handshake with me , i was beyond pissed off with you . First impression , you were just a nerdy boy , one year younger than me. Not thinking much about anything else , a few days later , the "three musketeers"including me went to catch a movie , most amazing show (now you see me) . 3 of us happily queueing up for the tickets and the three of you stood there beside "land" (computer gaming station). I saw the "white shirt guy" (my besties "husband") and my little "son" but apparently , you were not even in my view . No memories seeing you , i'm not sure why , not sure at all . Unaware of the fact that you 3 were actually watching the same movie at the same time (WOW!). Got home and posted a photo of us 3 , the musketeers . Awhile later , you commented on my photo on instagram . "Ahhhhh i saw u guys" , i didn't know u then ... but now i find that super cute :-( then u asked if i had instamessage and tadaa we started talking there then in short we fought cause i found u irritating and maybe u did too but idk . i introduced u to ally and u asked me to create a group with myself inside , accidentally , i gave u my number too . we fought then suddenly i felt like i missed u ... but idk why , i always tot i hated u so much . then we started talking in whats app. many times i was jealous cause my vb mates are so gorgeous and im not, i tot u would like them better , asked u to talk to them instead , i utterly regretted so badly. my apple likes u too , what do i do ?  we've been talking for 10 WEEKS but now ... its like as if everything was gone . i wished u could be next to me sometimes and i can cuddle with u (appropriately) hahah but it was just something i wish but won't happen.  everytime u fall , i wanna be with u but u end up going cycling instead . WOW! what a great fall . i miss u so bloody much , i wanna hug u and tell u how much i miss u and all those beautiful memories . calling me ur princess , sending me sweet messages , goodnight , good morning . calling me babe (first time) , calling u my precious baby :-( extremely precious . i used to think you were not my type but now i just find u 100% perfect , wtv u do , you're just perfect . wanting to have a body as good as ur ex , but im also doing the fitness routine for my own good . wishing i was half as pretty as ur ex. being jealous because you talk to girls although i shouldn't be because i dont even have the rights to do so . your facebook "accept relationship" im definitely not a desperate girl , i accepted it cos i was trying to see if you'e trying to play with me . but in the end u claimed that it was just ur friend. wanting to comfort u when ur friends have hurt u . esp that deodorant guy. but maybe i dont even deserve a place in ur heart . maybe i was just a replacement of ur ex . or maybe u were just lonely , 10 bloody weeks . yesterday it was just goodmornings . today too .what about tmr ? i so bloody wish u can come this coming saturday for the volleyball match , please come . this is actually very retarded cause no ones reading this exept me . its sp nice to finally splurge everything out . well , u changed me . definitely , but im happier being the person u changed me to . i miss you darius :-( i really do . if you see this, i guess its .... creepy? cause this is meant for no one to see , i just had to say everything out . love u bby :-( i love u for u , but do you ? i wanna see u , maybe you will just flirt with my other friends.